June 05, 2008
For the women in his life
I was reading one the blogs which I frequently read when I saw this song/poem which the author wrote as a tribute to the women in his life. Personally, I feel that the poem is more of a romantic nature and I think its one of the most romantic poems I have read. He uses really simple words to express his feelings. Simple yet powerful words and reading each word, I was touched. So here, I have re-produced what he wrote.
那些女孩教我的事
(詞：陳沒+阿信 / 曲：阿信)
要不是你讓想念猖狂 打破天窗
我不會發現枕頭上的荒涼
以為你就是故鄉
卻變成我的流浪
誰的傍晚 是誰的天亮？
十九八七六十六億人 同時狂歡
五四三二一個人倒數孤單
回憶的擁擠廣場
假裝你還在身旁
就像你最愛 依賴我的肩膀
第一行詩的狂妄
第一首歌的難忘
第一次吻你的唇 你的倔強
第一顆流星燦爛
第一個天真願望
第一個諾言對你的荒唐
你教我愛的善良
你教我恨的野蠻
你教我忘記該忘 傷心太傷
那些你教我的事
讓思念更苦更長
只想問 想念的 想念的 想念的你
怎麼樣？
愛情是信仰 或只能是旅途風光
那女孩帶我漫遊一次天堂
你教我怎麼愛上
卻沒教怎麼遺忘
讓我的陽光 都變成了淚光
P/s: The rumor mill has it that the author has a long time girlfriend who has been with him for many years. I strongly feel that she is the muse of this song/poem. For those of you who still have not figured out, the author is also the lead singer of a certain rock band and I always wondered how his girlfriend could wait for him for so many years. After reading this post, I finally understand why...........
P/s II: If you are still reading and interested, this song is included in the new album of 品冠 titled 「那些女孩教我的事」.
Posted by Fatgirl at 02:28 AM | Comments (0)
May 31, 2008
我的五月的天
在今年的五月发生了很多。 在今年的五月， 我看了两 场五月天的演唱会。 那两场多么精彩的演唱会。五月天在今年的五月回到了地球， 他们也把我带回了地球，这个风狂的世界。
Stealing a quote from Ashin, the lead singer of Mayday,"在这几场演唱会后，五月天就要踏踏实实的准备下一张专辑了。". (please note that I may changed some words as I cannot remember the exact words). Today is the last concert Mayday will be having in 2008. Its being held in Hong Kong and several friends I know will be attending the concert. I see similarities between what Ashin said and the current situation in my life.
All good things have to come to an end. The concerts probably signified a time of fun for Mayday where they get to play music they love/enjoy and interact with their fans, however, no rock band can move ahead without making new music to keep their fans interested so after this series of concerts, they will be taking a break to work on their new album. Finishing off their concert tour in the month of May was probably a deliberate decision for them as they had named themselves after the month of May and this year the month of May will signify both an end and a beginning for them.
For me, the decisions which I have made happened to coincide with the month of May. No, as much as I am a huge fan of Mayday, I do not do crazy things like purposely making my decisions to coincide with May. This May signifies an end and a beginning for me too. I have left behind a comfortable, well paying job (albeit that I had to work very long hours) and numerous friends which I have made over the years. It was a comfortable environment which I sometimes work on auto-pilot after so many years and with good work mates I could count on. But my decision has been made and come 2 June, I will be starting work in a new place. Of course I am not without my apprehensions but sometimes I have to make a decision for me too and what I think may be good for me. So just as the concerts were a form of playtime for Mayday, they were a playtime to me too before I embark on this new path where I have to use the knowledge I have gained in the past few years and learn to work well with my new colleagues.
In the next few months, just as Mayday will be working hard on their new album, I will be working hard in my new job. Next year, after Mayday's new album is released, they will begin a new concert tour and you can bet that I will be there again screaming my lungs out and singing along with them, wherever I may be or they may be.
五月天， 明年我们会再见面！ 在那时之前， 让我们一起加油吧！
Posted by Fatgirl at 06:16 PM | Comments (0)
September 08, 2007
Yes, we are JUST friends, I repeat!
Sometimes I am amazed at how narrow minded people can be in this day and age! I am sick of explaining to the people around me that I am just friends with a good guy friend of mine. The worst part is that they will gossip/speculate about our relationship in whispers around me. Its like "oh come on!", like I will not know what you are talking about. How many times must I tell you, there is bloody nothing going on!!! Get a grip!
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August 11, 2007
Nothing
I have been quiet lately partly because I really have nothing much to write about. Since I came back from Brisbane, it has been work, work and more work! My life seems to revolve around work and like a good friend recently commented, I have no weekends. He meant it in jest but it was all so true. Decisions, decisions, decisions. So many things to do but so little time. Sometimes, I wish I had simple wants and needs then maybe I will not be so stressed.
Anyway, yesterday was National Day so it was a public holiday. Met two good frens for lunch and had a KTV session after that. Because it was National Day, if you wore any red accessories or clothing, there was a 50% discount on the cover charge! Decided I should have a long weekend so I was on leave today. I had a totally decadent day, woke up at 12pm and did nothing. I wanted to get a pedicure but there was no more vacancies so I went to color my hair instead. Its red now, I was so sick of brown. Another day over, shucks, two more days of holiday left only!!
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April 26, 2007
Drip, Drip, DRIP
Somewhere in the little apartment I live in, a pipe is leaking...........my brother's floor is seeping water and my neighbour living downstairs is complaining. The only thing I am glad about is that its not my room coz I have much more stuff lying about my room then my brother and I will freak out if water starts seeping through my floor into my books, bags and whatever nots I have lying about. However, due to the mysterious leaking pipe, our water mains have to be switched off so its equivalent to having no water supply in my apartment now!!! Damn tragic I tell you.
And that's not the worst part. The worst part is the contractor's earliest available time slot may be next week or later. Just thinking about that makes me want to faint!!! Maybe I should book myself into a hotel or move to my aunt's apartment until the silly pipes are fixed!!! So if anyone of you know any good contractors, please do drop me a note. Thanks.
Posted by Fatgirl at 11:48 PM
February 19, 2007
Love
Valentine's Day was not too long ago. And yes, in case any of you are wondering, I spent it alone again. In the past year I have learnt quite abit about love. Sometimes, it may be the right person but the wrong time and sometimes, its just the wrong person. And telling the wrong person that he is just the wrong person is really not an easy task, especially when he is a good friend of a good friend. I no longer keep in touch with him anymore, partly because I feel bad about the manner I treated him though I do wonder about how he is doing at times. He was after all, a really nice person, although the wrong person for me.
I think romantic love is one those intangible things in life which we never stop looking for until we find it or it finds us. I think people who say they are not looking for romantic love or say they do not need romantic love are just plain liars. Love is actually not that difficult to find, it is all around us everyday. The love we received from our families, from our friends, but to find romantic love, that is where the difficult part comes in. I am still searching for it and I am going to continue until I find it or it finds me.
Anyway, the inspiration for this blog entry came when I was reading the script for the Taiwanese drama I am currently watching, Hana Kimi. I can just imagine a few of you who are reading this blog entry rolling your eyes now and thinking “Not again, she is watching some silly Taiwanese idol drama again!” Yes, yes, I know I am always very fascinated with such stuff but I shall leave all that to another blog entry some other day. The point here is that while reading the script, I came across a passage that narrates the lead female character’s quest for love and that got me thinking about how true the passage was.
Basically, the passage narrates that none of us ever stop looking for romantic love although we never know when or where we will find it or even if we will ever find it. However, we all live in hope that one day, we will find it. Okay, the Chinese passage was a lot more meaningful and beautifully written so here it is, my contribution to your thought for the day:
“我不知道爱情离我还有多远,
是公车一表那么远,
还是地球到月亮那么远,
但是,
我希望真正的爱情有一天会属於我."
Posted by Fatgirl at 01:02 PM | Comments (2)
January 03, 2007
Good-bye 2006, Hello 2007.
Once again its time to start a new year. Looking back, 2006 was all about work, sleep and eat. Those were about the 3 activities I spent my time on in 2006. I have not been writing lately because I am just depressed about how my life is turning out. Yet, I feel helpless as I do not know which direction I should head in.
Its really amazing that time teaches everyone how insignificant everyone is. Even though I am sad, depressed etc etc, time does not stop for me and the world continues to spin. My resolutions for 2007?
1) Remember God always and go to church more often.
2) Exercise more (since I know eating less is so difficult. Ha ha!)
3) Work smarter so I have more time to relax, go shopping and meet up with friends.
That's about it and Happy New Year to everyone.
Posted by Fatgirl at 01:08 AM | Comments (1)
October 23, 2006
Signs of love?
Someone asked me a really (in my view) funny question the other day. "How do know if you are in love?" Well, seriously, I do not have an answer to that. I always think that a person can fall in love as easily as one can fall out of love. And sometimes, a person will not even know that he/she is in love until its too late. And sometimes, when I really have nothing better to do, its a question I ask myself too. "Would I know if I were in love?" Even I can't answer this question about myself and when I ask my fren this question she will tell me that I cannot be in love coz if I really were in love, I would not have to think so hard about whether I am in love or not!! That makes sense, don't you think.
Then again it doesn't..............
So let me ask you this question, "How do know if you are in love?"
Posted by Fatgirl at 02:35 AM
June 13, 2006
Men are from Mars and women are from venus - the aftermath
It has been three weeks since Girl told Boy that she would rather just be friends. Since then, he has not called her anymore or appear anymore on MSN messenger. It hurts too, when you are the one doing the ending. Its like saying good bye to a friend who had shared so much of your life and suddenly cutting off all ties. Its even harder when you know that you are the one who deliberately chose the path.
Sometimes, Girl feels like crying for the lost friendship but then again, what right does she have to cry since she was the one who decided to end it. Its like a throbbing wound that refuses to heal and no matter what medicine she applies, it refuses to go away. Its painful and yet she doesn't know how to make it go away. Why does all this have to hurt, why can't a person just live.
A day at a time, it will pass someday. She has to believe that to live on.
Posted by Fatgirl at 02:53 AM | Comments (2)
Men are from mars and women are from venus - the end
Many people have asked me what happened in the end to Girl and Boy so here's the grand finale:
After much deliberation, Girl decides that she is not ready to start a new chapter with Boy but she would like to remain friends with Boy. However, she really did not know how to break the news to Boy. Well, after agonising for many days, she receives a phone call from Boy. Girl decided that this will be the end. Answering the call, she broke the news to Boy. Of course, in the nature of such calls, she accepted all blame and told him that it was her and not his fault. Yah, I know its cliche but whatever that works lah. Its not easy too, being the one who breaks the news. Well that is the end of the story.
Posted by Fatgirl at 02:30 AM
May 21, 2006
Are men really from mars and women from venus? Part II
Day two of the saga continues............
Its evening again. The friday which Girl was going off for her friend's burthday party. Boy sends Girl the following message:
"Please enjoy the evening with your friends. I apologised for those hurtful words I said the other day. It was totally stupid of me and I'm really sorry."
Girl's thoughts on receiving the message:
"Huh, crazy! Of course I will enjoy the evening with my friends. No, I wasn't hurt but just REALLY put out. And I still think you need english language lessons! What's with the "apologised"!"
(Ed's note: Girl had a really great time with her friends and an overdose of desserts!)
Before going off for her party, Girl went back to the office and ran into Miss X, Boy's good friend. The person who introduced the two of them. Miss X says to Girl, "So I heard that he popped the question." To which Girl replies "Yah and he popped himself in the process too!"
That was when, Girl learns something new.............
Apparently, it was Miss X who suggested to Boy to ask THE Question. And now Boy blames her that Girl is ignoring him and Miss X is trying to help Boy make amends. Miss X represented to Girl that she had reprimanded Boy for his stupidity to which Girl just thinks it boils to down to plain having no common sense. Its like "Oh please, you are so old already, you should have enough sense by now to know that you should not ask such things over sms!" I mean, no matter how inexperienced you are at relationships, you should know that such things should not be done via sms. It is not only rude but it shows a total lack of any sincerity! If you need people to tell you such things then maybe you should just go back to primary school!
Day three of the saga:
Girl polls at least 5 of her closest friends about what happened to her and they were all horrified at how dumb and stupid Boy was! No one could say anything in his defence and they were horrified at how a grown man does not even have enough common sense to know that such things SHOULD NOT be done via sms!
Girl is still ignoring Boy's calls. Boy sent a message in the afternoon asking to meet for dinner that night to which Girl replies that she already had plans for the night. As she replied, these were her thoughts:
"Oh please, I have alot of other friends and activities I can do ok. You think I sit around waiting for you to date me! Please lor!"
Posted by Fatgirl at 02:05 AM
May 19, 2006
Are men really from mars and women from venus?
The names of the characters in the following story have been changed to protect the identity of the characters. This is a story of what happened recently to someone I know........
Girl wakes up in the morning and starts getting ready for work, she remembers receiving messages on her handphone the previous night, but fell asleep before having a chance to read the messages. The first message was from her mother, the second message reads as follows:
"Will you be my girlfriend?".
The message was from someone whom she has been seeing recently, whom we shall conveniently call "Boy". The question was not unexpected, however the manner that it came was a surprise. Her first thoughts were "Oh please, ask me like that, what kind of a reply do you think you deserve!" Anyway, she decided not to answer the message and went off to work.
Come evening, Girl was still at work. Girl has a habit of working long hours and Boy would usually drop her a message to ask her about her day. At around 7 plus in the night, Boy sends Girl the following message:
"Had your dinner yet? Don't torture yourself if you have to with an empty tummy."
Girl still annoyed with Boy, chose not to reply to his message. Although at that point, Girl really wanted to be mean and reply with the following message:
"I have not eaten because I am horrified by a certain sms which I received from a cheap friend. I couldn't believe how cheap my friend was that I have lost my appetite for the whole day!"
At around 10 pm, Boy calls Girl but Girl chooses to ignore his call. After which, Boy sends Girl the following message:
"Wanna chat? Did I go too fast with the question I asked yesterday?"
Girl decides that Boy deserves an answer as that is only fair to him so she replies with the following message:
"Yes, it was too fast. I think we need to talk but I need some time to sort out my thoughs. FYI, such a question should preferably not be asked via sms."
Well, guess what Boy replies to that...........
"It was kinda late so thought of sms. Anyway it was a stupid thing. Btw, I am off tomorrow to clear the extra hours I put in last weekend. If you want, I can call later."
Girl's thoughts on receiving the message was "Duh, so what if it was late. If it was late, can't you ask some other day, some other time then! And didn't I just told you that I need some time so why do you want to call me later. Some time does not mean 5 minutes, half an hour or an hour. Just leave me alone for tonight, can't you just do that! And who gives a shit that you are off tomorrow. I have to work tomorrow, you know!"
Girl decides that Boy should know that she is angry so replies with the folllowing message:
"What! You mean asking that question was stupid! Anyway, I am tired and want to sleep."
(translated as "So now you think asking me to be your girlfriend was a stupid thing to do. I am angry now and do not want to talk to you. Anyway, didn't I mention in my previous message that I need some time!")
This story gets better and better and Boy really puts his foot into his mouth with his next reply. Its really tragic how someone can worsen an already bad situation! Girl just gets angrier and angrier and Boy seems to have no idea what a mess he had made! How dense can he be!
Boy replies:"I know and I take it all back. Well take your beauty sleep. Will talk to you tomorrow night after the birthday party. Also how's Da Vinci Code on saturday?"
(side notes: Girl has to attend a birthday party the next day)
Girl's thoughts on receiving the message: "ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH, now I am really put out! Now you take everything back and still pressurise me to talk to you and still ask me want to watch movie on saturday! Don't you get it that I am angry, do I have to spell it out! How duh can you get!"
At this point, Girl refuses to reply to Boy anymore.
Lessons to be learnt from this episode:
1) Its rude to ask a girl to be your girlfriend via sms. Face to face is the best approach. If you are afraid of rejection, send flowers and a card. If you do not even want to do that, then you should just stay single!
2) Learn to read between the lines of messages. Be more sensitive to language. Unless English is not your first language or else you have no excuse!
3) When someone is angry, try not to send messages that will make the person even angrier!
To be continued..................watch this space................
Posted by Fatgirl at 01:56 AM | Comments (2)
May 16, 2006
Confused?
Humans are such contrary creatures. Or maybe its just me. Sometimes I think I worry too much about what is to come and forget about the good things that are happening right now. Sometimes I think I purposely choose to make my own life difficult. Anyway, these are all things I have created for myself as a good friend advised. Maybe I should learn to let go abit and enjoy the moment and stop worrying about the consequences that will come later. Argh, now I am all confused, are you confused by my confusion too?
Posted by Fatgirl at 02:58 AM | Comments (1)
May 07, 2006
Voting for the first time
I cast my vote for the first time in my life for the election. It was quite a simple exercise really. I went to my designated polling centre at around 2pm, by then there was no queue already. Gave my poll card to the counter and received a ballot ticket then proceeded to cast my vote. Who did I vote for? Ha ha, my vote is secret, cannot tell.
Such a simple act and yet the consequence of that act decided who will be the government for the 5 five years. Although the whole Singapore and probably the whole wide world knew that the ruling party would be returned to be power, it was still rather exciting watching the results of the election later in the night on television. Oh well, excitment over, no more rallies to watch till another 5 years time.
Posted by Fatgirl at 10:09 PM
March 10, 2006
Dilemma
Sometimes, I think I am not a very nice person. I wish for a certain event to happen but when it does happen, I will find some excuse to complain about it. Then I will start to take the opportunity for granted. I wonder if its fear of the unknown that stops me or is it that I am just a horrible person.
Posted by Fatgirl at 02:03 AM | Comments (1)
March 04, 2006
Missing you
Two of my colleagues whom I work quite closely with quit recently. One left a month ago to migrate to another country and the other will be leaving the firm next week for greeener pastures. The one who migrated was my mentor and the one leaving for greener pastures is my assistant for this client engagement. Today, as I sat in room at the client's place where I had spent so many hours "fighting fire" with them, I felt rather sad as I remembered the times I was at this particular client's premises.
My memories of this client is full of the two of them especially my mentor whom I had worked very closely with since last year on this engagement. As I sat there eating my lunch at the client's canteen, I remembered the countless lunches I had shared with them. As I walked from the canteen back to the meeting room I was using, I remebered the countless other times I had walked along the same path with them. Although I feel really happy for them that they are leaving for better things, I cannot help but feel sad too as I will really miss their company.
Posted by Fatgirl at 03:27 AM
February 10, 2006
C'mon, take a little gamble.
For those of you who live in a little island called Singapore, you would probably know that the lottery craze is on now because the grand prize is worth S$10 million!
I, of course, as part of my early retirement plan, have bought tickets for the draw. I was working late as usual and was replying to a message a friend had sent, writing to him about how I was anticipating the draw coz if I am one of the lucky big winners in this draw, I would probably never have to work late again!
His reply was that he was never supportive of gambling which is why he would never buy lottery tickets. He, being only an acquintance, so I shall not be too quick to pass judgement on his reply. But his reply did get me thinking.
Personally, I think everyone is a gambler and our life is the biggest game of chance we will ever play. Before making any decision, I am sure everyone weighs the odds and there is always opportunity cost involved in every decision that we make. I think we all take daily gambles in hope of bigger dreams. I work hard because I think that gaining all this experience now will make me more valuable in the marketplace tomorrow. But by spending so much time working, I am putting many things on hold. Its a gamble I take. As valuable as I might be, I may have passed up opportunities now which I will never have again and which I may regret later, but that is a chance I take.
I am sure everyone out there is playing their respective games of chance and finding their own way to their pot of gold. A person only has 24 hours a day and there is only that much a person can accomplish in a day so we take chances, pass up opportunities and live to regret some of the choices that we make. However, we play on, coz we know that in this game of chance, we win some and lose some. But if we stay true to our dreams, we will always be the winner in our game of chance.
So to my fellow gamblers out there, may we all find our own pot of gold at the end of the rainbow and wish each other well in our game of chance!!
Posted by Fatgirl at 02:02 AM | Comments (2)
February 05, 2006
Question 1:
What if the person who holds your hand is not the one who holds your heart? But what if the person who holds your heart does not want to hold your hand? Which is sadder, to know that the one holding your hand is not the one holding your heart or to know that the one who holds your heart, does not want to hold your hand?
Question 2:
What if the person who holds your hand is not the one who holds your heart? But what if you are too scared to find out if the person who holds your heart wants to hold your hand? Which is sadder, to know that the one holding your hand is not the one holding your heart or being too scared to ask the one who holds your heart if he wants to hold your hand?
Personally, I think many times in real life, its easier said than done. Life is definately not a movie or a storybook and sometimes, it just not have a perfect ending, it just has a "best that you can do, at a certain point in time" ending. That's my thought for the day!
Posted by Fatgirl at 02:07 AM
January 08, 2006
Another closed chapter
Today, I finally understand why some people are willing to quit their current jobs and follow along with their former superior when their superior leaves to join another organisation. Someone whom I admire alot and have alot of respect for at work is leaving. In fact, she is someone whom I "idolise", idolism here meaning she is someone I want to emulate. I had known her departure had been in the works for some months but somehow, my brain had refused to accept the fact. Today, while browsing the department planner for the next few months, I realised that she will be leaving really soon and my brain is still having difficulty accepting this fact.
In a few weeks time, I will no longer have her to discuss with whenever I need help at work. I must admit that I have been really dependent, always turning to her for help whenever I run into complications at work. She always gives excellent advice and no problem ever seems to daunt her. I really hope to become like her some day.
I will always remember the time when I was her assistant and had to stay back in office till 4am to finish my work. She stayed back with me although she could have gone home hours earlier. Her patience in teaching me although I suspect she might have really wanted to "kill" me or scream at me on countless occasions! Yes, I was that useless an assistant back then. Luckily for me, she never gave up on me and I will always be grateful to her for her efforts and persistence in training me.
I will miss her excellent advice and sunny personality in the future. I am really thankful to have had the opportunity to work with her and learning so much from her in the process. I hope she knows how much she had changed my life and shaped my work attitude. I hope that after she has left, I will always remember what she had taught me and follow in her example of an excellent team leader.
Posted by Fatgirl at 01:55 AM | Comments (3)
December 18, 2005
Do not worry
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable then they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labour or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Soloman in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying,'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?'. For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
(Matthew Chapter 6, verses 25 to 34)
Every once in a while when I start to worry about my life, I read something that reminds of the bigger picture.
Posted by Fatgirl at 01:52 AM
December 15, 2005
Thought of the day
I was watching one of my favourite talk shows today and one of the guests on the show, an influential mandarin singer said this phrase which I thought was very touching:
"?????????????????????"
I may not have remembered the exact words but I think I did manage to remember the meaning he was trying to put across. I hope it brings imspiration to everyone out there who are chasing their own dreams too.
Posted by Fatgirl at 11:12 PM
November 20, 2005
Thorn between 2 wedding invitations
Two of my colleagues are getting married on the same day and I have been invited to both weddings! I am in such a dilemma! I think most of my colleagues are in the same sticky situation as most of us have been invited to both weddings! I have told everyone that I will be away during that period of time so I will not be attending both weddings but I still feel really bad. Sigh, what is one supposed to do under such circumstances??
Posted by Fatgirl at 10:38 PM | Comments (1)
October 16, 2005
Musings of a whiner
I was reading Paulo Coelho's "Manual of the Warrior of Light" and the first passage that I read was about how we always find ourselves in situations or being forced to do things we dislike because we are being forced to learn what we do not want to learn.
This passage particularly struck me as I always find myself with clients or projects that I really do not want to take at work. Maybe because I always whine alot when I get into such situations so is the lesson that I am suppose to learn "whine less, do more"?? Sigh........
P/S. FAS 133 "Hedge Accouting" is giving me a super bad headache. Anyone know anything about it out there!! ARGHHHHHHHHH!
Posted by Fatgirl at 12:29 PM | Comments (1)
September 18, 2005
So sick of work!!!
Sometimes I really hate my job. It severely limits my social life and I always end up not being to make it to appointments with friends. Previously, I had too much free time and felt bored all the time, now I am busy all the time and no longer have time for anything else besides work. Of course, I am not losing out althogether, considering the pathetic pay then. Yes, yes, I know, there is no free lunch in this world but sometimes I wish there was some sort of balance!!!
Yes, I am pissed because I had to work really late on a Saturday night due some problems with a client and had to miss my karaoke session with DSD and her friends, which I was really looking forward to!! Argh!!!!! Stupid client, stupid accountants, stupid fund managers, stupid shareholders, stupid stupid stupid!! Damn irritated! Work so hard also not like I will get more pay or bonus then other people!!
I am so looking forward to next week, when I will be off to Australia again and visting the theme parks where I can scream all my fustrations out!!! Argh! Argh! AAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!
Posted by Fatgirl at 10:58 PM
August 14, 2005
ANGRY FATGIRL
Some smart aleck told me that the error on a certain program was not going to be a problem but apparently it was and now computer is kaput. Surviving on my office laptop which is why I have disappeared from my blog and MSN, just in case anyone is wondering. ARGH!!!! This is soooooooooooo bloody f---ing inconvenient!! Sometimes, I wonder why I even bother to buy original software when it seems all my problems always seem to come from buying original!! ARGH ARGH ARGH!!!!
Posted by Fatgirl at 10:28 PM
July 29, 2005
Back to work on Monday
Come Monday, it will be work as usual again and with new added responsibilities. Its really ironic at times when I think about it. When I was younger (not that I am very old now lah), I used to think it will so cool when I started to work, go places and earn money. I will become a careerwoman with an amazing social life. Now, I finally realise how difficult it is to lead such a life. If you want to successful, it means you have to spend lots of time at work and most of the time, after you are done with work, you will just feel like going home to sleep and have little energy left to do anything else. And the road to success is no bed of roses but instead strewn with big rocks and huge man holes. Before success can even be attained, I will have to navigate my way through all this countless obstacles and not to mention the mistakes I might make along the way that will cause me to lose some of the headway I may have made.
Sigh, sometimes I wish that I remain a foolish young child with little knowledge of anything. But of course, its too late to consider that path now. Growing up is turning out to be a really painful process indeed!
Posted by Fatgirl at 10:21 PM
July 28, 2005
Supersize Fatgirl
I watched the documentary "Supersize me" last night and now I am feeling quite grossed out about the food I put into my body each day. I do not eat fast food that often, maybe once a month but I do drink lots of diet coke and eat loads of processed sugary food like cakes, biscuits, candy and chocolates. Especially so when I am working late. Its like I am racing against time to finish my work, so I just grab any available food to fill my stomach. I know that its a really bad habit but sometimes, there is really no other available food around and I am really hungry so I just have to make do. And given the crazy hours I work, if I do not have to work on weekends, all I want to do is just lie in bed and sleep to my fill.
Yes, I am the epitome of the typical American that Morgan Spurlock was portraying in the documentary, except, I am Singaporean and not American lah. But even before I had watched the documentary, I know that the lifestyle I was leading was most probably going to lead me to an early death, although I am a non-smoker and only drink occasionally. After watching the documentary and seeing how Morgan Spurlock's health deteriorated so badly after just one month of fast food binge, I started to think about how I have been living my life in the past years and shudder to think about the effects on my poor body. I suppose, the worst form of abuse is abuse that is self inflicted.
I hereby apologise to my poor abused body for all the trash that I have been stuffing into it for the past years. I do not expect to make an overnight change in my eating habits but I will be more careful with the food that I put into my mouth. I will make an effort to eat less of my favourite chocolates and when I am working late I will make an effort to make healthy food choices. I will make an effort to visit the gym on weekends instead of sleeping late and wasting away my life. Let's see how my lifestyle will change in the next few months.
Posted by Fatgirl at 11:07 PM
June 18, 2005
Convenience at a price
It seems that such news is becoming more and more common these days. Are the thieves getting smarter or are we becoming more complacent? Identity theft is becoming a really big problem these days. What a bizarre world we live in. Everything is at the tips of our fingers but convenience comes at a price. As it becomes more convenient for us, it becomes easier for criminals to commit theft too.
Posted by Fatgirl at 11:12 AM | Comments (1)
May 29, 2005
Friends and Weddings
Recently, my good friend DSD wrote about words she dreaded to hear in conversations. I agree with her blog entry as those were words I am quite tired of hearing too. However, I feel that I must add my own disclaimer. Its not that I do not feel happy and joy when I hear of friends getting married. I get excited when I hear such news and my congratulatory messages are always sincere just in case the friends whom I have recently said such phrases start to think otherwise. But it seems like most of the time, when I meet up with friends these days, somehow, the conversations will be focused entirely on HDB flats, wedding packages, hotel banquets etc etc. Of course, I must add that not all friends who are getting married are like that. I still have "balanced" conversations with many of my soon-to-be married friends.
Maybe it freaks me, that not very long ago, these same people used to share the same interests as me such as where the restaurants with nice food were, which movies/books/art exhibitions were good and where did they buy that new gorgeous watch/bag/accessory from etc etc. Maybe because I can foresee the conversation turning into about kids and mortgage re-financing in five years time and into complaints about school teachers, their kids' mean classmates and how stress school kids are in ten years time. Its scary, "ARE WE TURNING INTO OUR PARENTS!!", that is the question I want to shout sometimes!!!
Maybe because it not happening to me, which is why I see all the wedding conversations differently. Of course all this does not mean that I do not want to get married and have kids. It just means that I do not want to think about such things NOW! But I know if the time does ever come, I will have no lack of research sources to tap!!! Ha ha ha.
Posted by Fatgirl at 12:12 PM
May 16, 2005
Tired
I am tired. Tired of working long hours, never seeing the sunset anymore. Tired of running myself ragged to finish my work. Tired of smiling at people all day long even when I feel like screaming at them and throwing a tantrum! Most of all, I am tired of working so hard for nothing! Sometimes growing up is so hard especially so when its a growth process one has knowingly chosen. If I could turn back time, I would not have chosen otherwise but that does not make my choices any easier. I know this is only the beginning and there is still a long road ahead. But sometimes, I just feel so tired and helpless. Argh, whining and sighing is not going to help me get anything concrete done. Ok I am done with it for the moment. MUST FOCUS! One less second spent whining, means one more second to complete my work!
Posted by Fatgirl at 12:57 AM | Comments (2)
April 08, 2005
Racing with time
I live in a world of instant gratification. Everything is about racing against time. Efficiency is measured by how well we can complete a task in the shortest possible time. The shorter the time it takes to get the desired results, the better. Many times, I wonder if my time racing efforts are worth it. Everyday, I work towards a goal, to make something of myself, I say. Yet such a process takes time. You know the saying, "Someday, your time will come." but as a product of this world of instant gratification, sometimes, I wonder when that will be. When I am tired, I think about throwing in the towel, what is the point of all this anyway. I cannot this bring along with me when I die. And just as my time will come, it will pass too. Life can be so tiring, sometimes, I get so caught up in tomorrows that I forget all about today. The question is, "Will tomorrow come and what will I be if it never comes?" Well, I suppose I can only answer that tomorrow. Yes, I know......... corny!
Posted by Fatgirl at 02:14 AM
April 05, 2005
Inept
Yes, that is exactly how I am feeling these days. There seems to be a never ending list of tasks to complete and somehow, I am always missing something out. I try to write down and I try to remember but it seems that this and that will slip through the loopholes in my brain. No one ever questions the completed tasks but somehow, the uncompleted forgotten portions are always back to haunt me.
Sometimes I really wonder about my own intelligence. I seriously never thought myself very smart, but hey come on, I am not at the bottom of the barrel either. After all, I did not had to study very hard in school and still managed to pass my exams. Either that, my IQ must have deteriorated over the years and now I may just be left with about the same IQ as Forrest Gump!
Argh, all this stress is so getting to me. Sometimes, I wish life did not have to be a big competition and its ok to sit out an occasional race or two. Unfortunately, the truth sucks and I just have to deal. Help!
Posted by Fatgirl at 02:28 AM | Comments (2)
February 27, 2005
Please keep left
Singaporeans in general are not civic minded I tell you. Everytime I take the MRT or NEL, I am reminded of that sad fact. There are numerous signs on the escalators and travelators reminding commuters to keep to the left side but rarely do I see anyone doing it.
Its not so bad if I can say "Excuse me" and make my way through. Its most irritating when I am in a hurry and have keep excusing myself to people to push my way through. And getting weird looks from them! The most annoying people are couples who seem to like to play out their romance story on these escalators and travelators and are totally oblivious that they are in the way.
Just a gentle reminder to everyone, escalators and travelators are meant to help people move from one place to another in a shorter time, so please keep left and let those who are in a hurry pass through!
Posted by Fatgirl at 04:14 PM | Comments (2)
August 29, 2004
Oh can't you just wait!!!
I have had my driving license for over a year but not much driving practise. Most of the time I will drive myself into town and have my mum drive the car home. Its just too expensive parking there and since I would be going to several places, it doesn't make sense to park the car and having to come back later to collect it.
Anyway, today I decided that I shall drive to get some groceries and have my virgin parking attempt at a public place. I was feeling brave and wanted to try parking in a public lot. So there I was, being super careful so I would not hit the car next to me or the pillar. Then comes this irritating driver who thought I was taking way too long and started honking at me!!! Hey, can't you see the triangular decal on my car that is meant to tell you that I am a new driver!!! DUH!!! I know I am taking really long but not as if I was blocking his way or something but he just had to honk at me!!! Annoying idiot!!!
Posted by Fatgirl at 06:54 PM | Comments (2)