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February 15, 2005
Just plain tired?
As I sat at the foreign desk, typing away on my laptop, I lifted my head and the darkened sky outside greeted me. I glanced down at the cars on the roads and saw their headlights speeding towards home. In my little room, at the premises of an American multinational company, I was still at work.
At times like this, it gets to me, having no permanent desk space and always working out of paper bags. Spending weeks on end at clients' premises and having to smile politely at the client to request schedules, documents and explanations. Always having to maintain an air of professionalism even when all I feel like doing is throwing down my writing pad and pen and scream at them! Hey, its not like I enjoy torturing you with questions about your numbers, but you have to convince me before I can convince my manager, you know.
Yes, once in a while, I do wonder what I have gotten myself into. I have forgotten what is it like to be home before 7pm and having dinner with my family. Everyday, its another race against time. Sometimes I wonder if this is how my life is going to be until the day I retire, like 40 years from now and I wonder where would I find the energy to continue as such till then. I marvel at how some people find the discipline and energy to work such hours for 20 over years without a word of complaint. Its so amazing! Must really find a way to be more positive and keep my energy level up. Any ideas, anyone?
Posted by Fatgirl at February 15, 2005 12:23 AM
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Mille had crazy hours like you when she was a analyst trainee... now she says it's a lot better... so perhaps it will get better!!!
i do crazy hours too... so you aren't alone!
big hugs.
Posted by: tiggie at February 15, 2005 07:53 AM
The only way I can think of is a good diet and regular exercise to build stamina. i've never succeeded in achieving that stamina and energy though. In school, we always had PE to make us exercise. Now, we have to be disciplined and go to the gym, but I never find the time!
Posted by: monoceros at February 15, 2005 11:36 AM
cycling/walking/breathing in fresh air!!! ... i don't fancy being indoors when i exercise... but i suppose it keeps one motivated at times... get a friend to do something out-doorsy so you have to keep the appointment!
Posted by: tiggie at February 15, 2005 10:57 PM
Thanks for the encouragement! I hope I will get used to it soon. Need to start exercising, clothes are getting really tight. No time to shop for new clothes if I become too fat to fit into my current wardrobe!
Posted by: fatgirl at February 16, 2005 12:36 AM
Yeah, exercise helps. I was very stressed and depressed after work yesterday and after reaching home at 8.30pm i headed straight for the pool and swam like a maniac. I felt better after that. I'm beginning to have lots of self doubt about my ability to do well in this job of mine. Anyway, shall not whine here. But i'm planning to go for a run after i get home. I need to run off all the angst!
Give me a ring when you're free. Chatting to girlfriends helps too!
Posted by: dsd at February 16, 2005 12:52 PM